heads-up

just as a heads-up, i am thinking about making my blog private. i dont want the entire world to have any sort of access to my personal life. so please leave an email and i will for sure invite you. i had a blog for about a year before anyone even knew it existed and i like people to see it. i wont do it for a while, but i was just letting everyone know.

thanks to those who care...

with everything that has been going on with me lately i feel like i need to thank all those who have helped me through it all. first would have to be my family. they see me at my very worst, and are still willing to love me. next would be my friends. i have some pretty incredible friends in my life who care about me, and i dont think they know how much the little things they do to show they care, mean to me. i couldnt do any of this without them. and my leaders also. past and present. they always ask how im doing and are always willing to listen.
all these people mean the world to me. and there are so many more i could name too. in all that im going through with being sick and everything, i need these people. i love them all. so, many many thanks to everyone!

new diet of nothing-ness

well, my doctor is finally doing tests instead of making me try medicine. this is good. maybe we will finally start to get somewhere. the down side is that tests take time, and since i have been so super sick, i have to eat bland, bland, bland, in the mean time. not really becuase that is the problem, but so i can actually get food in me. so any advice? any amazing bland foods i could try? any suggestions would be amazing!

update

here is a quick update of my life.
its been pretty eventful. i drove to school twice. it was ok. i dont like driving by myself though. but i will get used to as as time goes on im sure. but i drove with a friend in my car going home both days and we were safe and everything. so that is good.
the biggest issue in my life at the moment, my health, still isnt doing so good. like i have said before, we are still kind of at a dead end and im not sure what is going to happen next. i hope the mystery will be solved soon.

one more mile stone down...

i just thought i would post about this because i was pretty excited about it... i am now a licensed driver. no more driving with a scary adult breathing down my neck. ok so it wasnt that bad, but i hated it. there are too many different styles of driving. one person will tell me one thing that another person would say the exact opposite. and when you ride with polar opposites at the same time (my parents)... well im just glad it is over. i am free!! from sunrise until sundown that is. if my mom will let me of course (which isnt going so well at the moment) but im sure it will work out soon enough.

life...

life is hard. i went to the doctor again today. im basically back to the beginning with more tests. it is frustrating to be getting all these tests and no answers. but for now i wont post about all of that. i have some happy news. i took my driving test and passed! so now all i have to do is take the written, and i am good to drive!

catch up

i just realized i deleted almost 2 months worth of posts. so i will catch anyone who cares up on what is going on.
school. potato harvest is now over. i go back tomorrow. i dont really want to go and take on the stress of assignments and tests, but i have to anyways, so bring it on!
the rest of life. its going ok. except i went to the doctor last week and it seems he is stumped. im hoping that this isnt another dead end, but it could be. he said he doesnt really know what else to do with me, so i guess i will have to wait and see what the next few weeks bring. i could get a surgery to fix some of what i have, but im not sure that is an option for me right now. my doctor doesnt want to do it either. but maybe he will have to. so i will see what happens.
some more bad news, i am having a few complications from the surgery i didnt even really need. (i didnt know i didnt need it until i recovered, and didnt recover from everything else i had before.) so that is extremely frustrating! there is a surgery to fix that too. but its not bad enough to go that far with it yet. if i get any surgery, it will be the other one.
if money grew on trees, that would make this whole surgery issue a lot easier to deal with. im just praying for some way for it to work out.

i hope everyone else is healthy and happy! have a good sunday afternoon.

you know, i was totally hoping i could be with friends during harvest. i hate flu season! but i do have some good news... i am going to take my driving test soon. i was going to this week. but maybe next week. hopefully it waits to snow. other than that, i cant think of much else to blog about. so i hope everyone stays happy and healthy!